In a few days, well into spring and cruising speedily into the warmer months, a full Sister Moon will come as close as possible to the earth. I think this is why many of us are feeling an abundance of energies lately. This moon isn't whispering her insights, but rather coming in close to give us a good talking to. Called a Super Moon because of this close proximity, it can feel a bit like we are being shouted at. Last night I was hearing it all loud and clear, in the wee hours of the morning, when my eyes desperately wanted sleep, but my mind was more than receptive to all the deep unconscious unearthings these Full Moons bring. When the energies get this rich and full (i.e. overwhelming), its tempting to pull the blankets over our heads and try to ignore the messages, but then we would miss out on the authenticity of our own wisdom, because of course, the messages aren't coming from outside us, but rather from deep within. Sister Moon just shines the light.
Sometimes these messages come at unexpected times and can flash across the screens of our minds in an instant. Sometimes its an in-articulated feeling, while at other times we say something aloud that rings of truth, yet we haven't actually felt the sentiment in our hearts yet. This Full Moon is in Sagittarius and this mutable fire sign is full of ideas, energy and intuition. Sagittarius is a truth-loving and truth-telling sign, often known for telling it like it is, in a tact-be-damned way. So pay attention to your words over the next week, as they may ring truer than you know.
The other day, I heard myself say something I didn't initially understand. It was in a difficult moment of pure overwhelming anxiety, when not one thing, but many little things had finally added up to an overcrowding in my mind and heart. A loved one asked with concern "What's wrong?" and without missing a beat I said "My best just isn't good enough right now" and as soon as I said it, I knew it was true, but didn't exactly know what that meant. It has taken me a few days of sitting with those words, saying them over and over again in my mind, before I came to understand the truth in them. There was a pearl of wisdom in those words and it was not that I am not good enough. I realized that I am doing my best and yet given the intensity of demands, schedules and responsibilities, it still feels as though its not enough. I began to see it as a supply-and-demand issue: the demand is more than I can supply and the answer isn't to supply more, but rather, to create less demand. A revelation, a relief and my deeper truth - all from those words uttered without thought or filter.
I suppose in many ways, its no wonder than many of us are feeling the pressures of life squeeze in right now. Spring is such a rich time of growth. Remember back in January and February when we were setting intentions for the months to come in 2013? You may be starting to see, or better yet, feel, the effects of those intentions coming to fruition - blooming and blossoming into being. It was author Anais Nin who said "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." Staying tight is painful, but blossoming is not without risk, not without growing pains. Spring is the time of moving through the blossoming and into the bloom.
This (Super) Sister Moon is on your side. Listen up, she says. Or better yet, listen inside.