"I see a finely wrought chain of tempered silver,
delicate yet strong, stretching back through time,
reaching deep into the earth..
A chain of women, each listening to each,
being present to her as she waits for her self to be born,
for her feeling values to come to form and to birth.
Woman after woman after woman,
being present, as each finds her voice."
-Judith Durek, A Circle of Stones: Woman's Journey to Herself
The Full Moon is here, tomorrow August 20th in Aquarius and this may sound a little odd, but before I knew what sign this month's Full Moon would be in, I thought to myself "I hope its in Aquarius". That's because I could use some big, out-of-the-box, dream world visualization to help me show up at my best right now. Sometimes the best way to connect with our soul work is to get out of our small minds and into the bigger unviersal mind. Aquarius energy is a great support for going further afield into new and interesting realms of possibility.
I have a great Full Moon exercise that I want to share that can help you connect with opportunities and possibilities you may have thought impossible. Its called "I Would Never" and when it was taught to me, I was so excited at how such a simple question could open us up to new possibilitues while at the same time affirming the ways in which you already on the right path.
The exercise is simple, in fact, its better to think of it as a writing meditation, so find a few minutes of quiet time to be alone. Grab your journal or a piece of paper. Then guide yourself through this simple prompt:
Thinking about your life as it is now, think about things you would NEVER DO. Write them down, starting with the words "I WOULD NEVER..."
Don't edit your list and make it truthful. Think about things you would never, ever do. Much of what you write down will be affirming, meaning, you will say to yourself "That's right, I would never do that." For example, one thing on my list is "I would never leave my husband and baby daughter and run off." And that is 100% true. I would never to do. I love them dearly and am dedicated to my family. Its affirming to connect with that and feel that in my heart.
You may have nothing but affirming items. And yet! You may realize there is something on that list you were telling yourself you would never do that is in the realm of possibility and desire. Perhaps you write down "I would never quit my job" or "I would never go back to school." At first, it may feel those statements are unequivocally true. But as you connect with them, you might start to question this truth. You may ask yourself why would I never do that? Perhaps, no matter how small, something you would never do, is actually possible. It might not go onto to your "to-do" list, but it comes off the "never" list and starts to rest in the realm of possibility, which is the first step in manifesting your soul work in this world.
Granted, this is a messy exercise that may leave you with more questions than answers, but soul work isn't always easy or clean or linear. And the Full Moon in Aquarius is a perfect time to ask the big questions and get unexpected answers. In fact, sometimes the answers aren't as important as being brave enough to ask the question in the first place.
With the moon moving into my sun and moon sign, I thought it was a good day (and high time) I wrote an actual blog post. A new baby and new house makes for bad blogging. And the truth is, I have never been very good blogger. Its actually one of those deceiving things, that seems so simple and yet is quite difficult in practice. I salute those of you who do it with seeming ease and grace.
I've also been a bad blog reader, which is perhaps even more distressing. After google got rid of their blog reader, I was lost on how to keep up with all my favorite blogs (I finally found Bloglovin' and hope it will be a good replacement)
That said, the Moon Woman Rising facebook community is growing everyday and is quite active. I love offering up bits of moon guidance there and I am excited by the vibe we've got going on!
The summer has been incredibly kind to me and the months ahead are looking full of exciting projects, teaching and workshops. And time spent with my growing babe, knitting projects and cooking tasty things in big pots.
With today's New Moon (and the Sun too!) in the sign Cancer, the hot summer energy is swirling around our relationship to family, home and nurturing. The New Moon supports releasing old familial patterns that are harmful and making room for new, expansive and personal definitions of family and home. Ah family. These relationships occupy some of the most vulnerable spaces in our hearts. Some respond to the challenges by hardening those spots, often understandably in order to survive and keep on. But surviving is not enough for the soul, and when safety can be found, it is time to go deep into those spaces and open them wide. Healing is not only the absence of pain, it is also the presence of love.
"Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family. Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one." -Jane Howard
“Close your eyes & imagine the best version of you possible. That’s who you really are, let go of any part of you that doesn't believe it.” -C. Assaad
Sister Moon is in Scorpio today and tomorrow, on the Solstice, moves into Sagittarius. And then on Saturday its a Full Moon. That's a lot of moon and earth energy to harness! The Summer Solstice bursts forth with energy and light - its the longest day of the year. This abundance of sun and daylight hours both literally and symbolically gives us the support we need to manifest whatever it is we are trying to grow in our lives.
When looking at the Summer Solstice as part of the larger seasonal rhythms that nourish and support our body and souls, this is a time when we may need some extra support to see our intentions for the year become a reality.
Its time to let go of any part of you that doesn't believe in the best version of yourself.
Its a time to pause and release those accumulated trappings that hold us back and weigh us down, weights we may have been slowly, unconsciously picking up over the past 6 months, until we find ourselves out of touch with our deepest, most sacred intentions. This is a great time to let the sun cleanse and invigorate us, so we can move forward with the lightness of showing up at our fullest selves, which often allows for the fullest expressions of joyful living.
"You know, this is this thing you do when you get really busy. When you have tons on your plate, you start to pile on more," my sweetheart observed. I opened my mouth to object, but knew it was true.
"Well, why would I do that? That just sounds crazy", I wondered out loud.
He just shook his head at the nuttiness of it.
"Honey, I have no idea."
In my last post, I wrote about feeling as though "my best just isn't good enough right now" and in the Full Moon days since, I've come to understand the nature of that feeling more clearly and what I suspected is indeed true - its not that I need to supply more, but rather the demand is too high. The candy is coming faster down the line than Lucy and Ethel can get those wrappers on (who doesn't love Lucy?)
I feel like I hear a lot of folks say "Do less" and it sounds so simple doesn't it? Doing less sounds as if you don't have to do anything at all. But, and I think any busy woman will agree, its just not that easy. Why? Because for most of us, we feel as though we have no control over the demand, and so, we are stuck trying to let those bon-bons go past us and resist the urge to wrap them. That takes a lot of energy, so even in not doing the work, we often feel depleted from all that not doing.
Our Sister Moon moves from Aquarius to Pisces today, so perhaps in honor of those dreamy, utopian energies, I am proposing a shift of thinking for myself - rather than doing less or more right now, I am going to start with order itself. Rather than react to what's coming down the line, I will place an order my supply can fulfill. True, sometimes we have no control over what shows up in our lives - from golden opportunities to family emergencies - sometime we must react to what is thrown into the fold. But often the too-high demands come from ourselves.
Saving the why I do this for another time, I am choosing to put less on my plate. Put in a smaller order. Demand less. In fact, I am going demand exactly what I have in me to supply right now. It feels like a radical act and I think I know why - because it honors exactly where I am at right now. It honors my abilities, my desires, my needs. I don't think this will always be easy. It means saying "NO" more often (the horror!) It means sitting with contentment. It means, and this is a hard one, being real with myself and letting go of judgement and expectations.
I suspect it also means a new level of everyday peace. It means that I believe my energies are sacred and worth honoring.
And I believe that about your energies too.
In a few days, well into spring and cruising speedily into the warmer months, a full Sister Moon will come as close as possible to the earth. I think this is why many of us are feeling an abundance of energies lately. This moon isn't whispering her insights, but rather coming in close to give us a good talking to. Called a Super Moon because of this close proximity, it can feel a bit like we are being shouted at. Last night I was hearing it all loud and clear, in the wee hours of the morning, when my eyes desperately wanted sleep, but my mind was more than receptive to all the deep unconscious unearthings these Full Moons bring. When the energies get this rich and full (i.e. overwhelming), its tempting to pull the blankets over our heads and try to ignore the messages, but then we would miss out on the authenticity of our own wisdom, because of course, the messages aren't coming from outside us, but rather from deep within. Sister Moon just shines the light.
Sometimes these messages come at unexpected times and can flash across the screens of our minds in an instant. Sometimes its an in-articulated feeling, while at other times we say something aloud that rings of truth, yet we haven't actually felt the sentiment in our hearts yet. This Full Moon is in Sagittarius and this mutable fire sign is full of ideas, energy and intuition. Sagittarius is a truth-loving and truth-telling sign, often known for telling it like it is, in a tact-be-damned way. So pay attention to your words over the next week, as they may ring truer than you know.
The other day, I heard myself say something I didn't initially understand. It was in a difficult moment of pure overwhelming anxiety, when not one thing, but many little things had finally added up to an overcrowding in my mind and heart. A loved one asked with concern "What's wrong?" and without missing a beat I said "My best just isn't good enough right now" and as soon as I said it, I knew it was true, but didn't exactly know what that meant. It has taken me a few days of sitting with those words, saying them over and over again in my mind, before I came to understand the truth in them. There was a pearl of wisdom in those words and it was not that I am not good enough. I realized that I am doing my best and yet given the intensity of demands, schedules and responsibilities, it still feels as though its not enough. I began to see it as a supply-and-demand issue: the demand is more than I can supply and the answer isn't to supply more, but rather, to create less demand. A revelation, a relief and my deeper truth - all from those words uttered without thought or filter.
I suppose in many ways, its no wonder than many of us are feeling the pressures of life squeeze in right now. Spring is such a rich time of growth. Remember back in January and February when we were setting intentions for the months to come in 2013? You may be starting to see, or better yet, feel, the effects of those intentions coming to fruition - blooming and blossoming into being. It was author Anais Nin who said "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." Staying tight is painful, but blossoming is not without risk, not without growing pains. Spring is the time of moving through the blossoming and into the bloom.
This (Super) Sister Moon is on your side. Listen up, she says. Or better yet, listen inside.
Joining the lovely Taryn of Wooly Moss Roots for the soul charging practice of counting your blessings from the past week.
My recent gratitudes and blessings...
:: that little scrap of paper with one of my favorite quotes. Its moved with me from place to place and always helps me feel settled.
:: the way the buds on the trees are poised to burst, the funny mating song of male cardinals, seeing our neighborhood come to life with daffodils, crocus and tulips everywhere.
:: homemade coconut toasted almonds. I've got quite a sweet tooth (but love eating healthy, whole foods) and these are so delicious.
:: slowly unpacking and getting our home in order - it sure does take awhile doesn't it? Everyday we try and accomplish something, even if its just one box. It gives me hope that we will get there eventually.
:: the kindness of neighbors. One of our new neighbords stopped by with a bottle of wine and welcomed us to the neighborhood. We feel so loved!
:: taking my sweet baby girl to the beach for the first time.
:: living within walking distance of a library and all those wonderful books. I confess, I've read a book or two on an e-reader, but nothing compares to turning over each page of a book.
:: nursing my babe for over 3 months. This is so huge for me, as I can only nurse from one breast. I had a lumpectomy in my 20s that severed my ducts on one side, so I can only use the one. I call it Megaboob. Its hasn't been easy, but Megaboob rose to the challen ge, doing double time and nourishing my little one. We have survived blocked ducts, milk blisters and more. Megaboob, I salute you.
:: cabbage. I think I ate a whole head by myself last night. Sauteed with olive oil and lots of fresh dill, I just can't just enough.
:: my new music obsession: Nigerian blues from the 1970s. Gets me moving and shakin'.
:: seeing one of my former yoga students rise above her challenges and become a yoga teacher, at the tender age of 18. So proud of you Aria!